Sometimes I think about how a person is almost constantly under the influence of their thoughts. It’s rare to be able to force oneself out of this “noise” and simply enjoy some inner silence! At times, especially when something extraordinary happens, it feels like my thoughts are consuming me. I can genuinely feel how much energy this takes away, and sometimes it seems like my brain is about to boil over. I have to tell myself, no, I mean shout: “Stop! Quiet! Enough!!!” And how pleasant that inner silence is… It feels like I can see myself from the outside, almost on a molecular level. I love that silence, that peace. It calms me and reveals the absurdity of this chaos and endless movement. Those moments alone with myself teach me to analyze, to see and evaluate my actions, to ask myself questions and answer them honestly, rather than running off aimlessly.
I really miss those moments alone with myself. I long to read more; if I could, I would read day and night. So, I often have to force myself off the “treadmill” of life for these delightful moments.
P.S. Deep, meaningful conversations with family also bring immense calm and joy, rather than mindless, automatic exchanges. We get so used to each other and the hustle and bustle that we often don’t truly see one another. We look, but we don’t see. However, if we take the time to really observe our loved ones, especially with loving eyes… we can discover so much and derive great pleasure from it!